My period is late.
This cycle was weird - I'm pretty sure I ovulated on day 9, based on temps and EWCF. But it could've been day 11, because I missed a temp in there. Usually I am a classic 28 day cycle, with ovulation day 13-15. My temps went up, then came down a bit, then went back up, then came down a bit. They've been hovering 2 tenths of a point above my coverline for 3 days now. If it weren't for my lovely unmedicated progesterone of 11.3 7-9 dpo, I would wonder if it was an anovulatory cycle.
I temped every single fucking day for 2-1/2 years, and really knew my shit. Then I started all these drugs, and I feel like I may not know my cycle anymore, especially since I rarely temp a whole cycle.
So anyways, my period is late. By the early ovulation it is 3 days late. By the later ovulation it is 1 day. By my typical 28 day cycle, it is still 2 days away. No feeling of its impending arrival (but that may be attributed to my TCM doing its job), but also no feeling of pregnancy. I have been pregnant twice, so I'd like to think I know what that feels like.
I am refraining from testing for the simple reason that if I get a negative, my fantasy of being pregnant will be ruined. So for now, not knowing and holding that hope is outweighing the need to know and destroying that hope.
I am really trying to ignore it all and not get emotional about it. But a part of me wants to enjoy the pregnancy fantasy, and pretend it is real. Refer back to the 'What If' post, only with more vigor and emotion.
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Wouldn't it be lovely to just be surprised with a positive?
I feel that way too - just when you think you have it figured out it throws you a curve ball! I am hoping this one brings you some very good news.
Yuck! I hate Limbo Land too!
Fingers crossed for great results though!
Just checking in. {hugs}
Thanks for the well wishes, ladies. My period showed today, but I did enjoy the fantasy while it lasted.
Oh poo. I'm sorry.
Oh crappy crappy crappy. I've been checking in hoping for an update and just read the comments now.
Sorry it wasn't a surprise cycle. Although I'm kind of enjoying the break while we wait for further treatment, a small part of me always hopes that this month I'll become That Woman. The urban legend that we always hope is real.
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