I drew my blood again last night (13dpo), and got the beta this morning. Negative. After Wednesday's test, I knew this cycle didn't work, but it is still depressing to me. I feel like giving up. I feel like scrapping IUIs and doing IVF again. I feel like scrapping ART and starting in on adoption. I feel like scrapping having a baby and just living my life.
And of course S is out of town for a few days, so I get to feel all these things on my own.
Gratitudes? That's a tough one today. I guess I'm grateful that no natural disaster has struck my home or my family. That's about it.
Taking care of myself? Well, we'll have to see where the day goes for that one.
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5 comments:
I am very, very sorry. It is very difficult to deal with this sort of news alone.
((hugs))
This is so not fair. I wish I could take away your pain. Scrap it all for today and you can figure it all out when you start to feel better again.
I'm sorry.
Coming out of lurking to give you a hug. ((hugs)). I'm sorry. I completely and totally understand. Do take care of yourself, it is so necessary.
Been meaning to ask you, what part of the NW are you in? I live in Tumwater... :)
I am so sorry. That sucks. My RE said to me, "make no decisions right now" but it is hard to be in it and not want to plan, to stop, to start, all of it. Hugs and more hugs.
Hang in there. I'm pulling for you... and I agree, don't make any decisions right now, give yourself a little time.
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