6 Months

6 months is the typical wait time at our agency. For safety sake, they say expect a match in 6-12 months, but it is typically more like 6 months. My brain is finally wrapping itself around that and letting me settle into the wait.

My frantic nesting has subsided. There are still things I'd like to do before a baby comes, but we are set for a quick stork-drop if needed. The only thing between me welcoming a baby into my home RIGHT NOW is that my house is an awful mess.

So, now I am focusing on my list of long-term projects. Things that in the past have felt like a burdeon hanging over me -- now I am welcoming them as a distraction. We are planting a wildflower meadow, and it'll be a lot of work this summer helping it get established. We are part-way through our alternative energy project -- hopefully we will be off the grid by the end of summer. My pile of long-term paperwork still needs to be done and organized -- I have a "friendly competition" going with my dad to see who can get throught their piles first -- after all I inherited the disorganized, distracted about paperwork gene from him. I am still looking for the perfect bathroom cabinet that will be our long-term cabinet but also work as a changing table. And I have 8 pounds to lose in a month. Apparently the BCP and domperidone that I am taking to induce lactation make some people put on weight. I haven't put it on, but I've stopped losing my easy 1/2 pound per week. Now my personal deadline is quickly approaching, so I have to start working harder.

6 months. It feels like a long wait, especially because we don't know if it really will be 6 months or longer. I am trying to be philosophical and say that any amount of time is fine to find OUR birthmother with OUR baby. I was looking at our profile yesterday, and I think it really represents S and I very well. It feels like the woman that would be attracted to us would really be the right match for us.

I really hope it is 6 months, because work-wise a strange thing has happened. My midwifery practice has always been steady. When I am not so focused on work, I don't get new clients, then when I am really into work again, I get a bunch of new clients, so that I average 2-3 a month, with a few breaks throughout the year. It always works this way. Well right now, I have a fun summer of work, then just 1 client in September and 1 in November. I'm hoping that means I'm getting a baby this fall. Otherwise, I'll have to drum up some business.

On the otherhand, 6 months is just around the corner. I hope it really is 6 months. Or less.